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I keep forgetting to write that I figured out how to change my settings so anyone can leave comments, not just google account holders. I always have people say that they read the blog, but I had no idea, so now... if you wouldn't mind telling me you were here, that would be great!!! Thanks (o:

It's official; the worst thing about being a parent is:

Anxiety. Seriously - Monday night we left the kids at my moms house because I had to be in San Diego by 7:00 a.m. and Robert went with me to keep me company...
We were laying in bed talking with the strange sound of silence around us, and Robert says something to the effect of not being able to handle it if something were to happen to one of the kids whether it be a sickness, a broken arm or the worst case scenario. He said he wouldn't be strong enough so he has to go first. I have no idea where this came from, but I think about that stuff ALL the time. Some days it's a thought and I get past it by telling myself that my strength would come in the form of my other kids, etc.. etc.. but some days those thoughts are completely debilitating. Like Monday night. I could NOT stop crying. My mind went all over the place, from my kids dying to Robert dying, to my mom or dad dying and my kids asking where they were to me dying .... I could not stop. I didn't even have my kids there to go and cuddle and kiss on, so I got a pillow of Kyla's a blanket of Kades and stood in Jack's room for a few minutes, then I turned on their sleeping music and finally fell asleep about 11:30. I had to be up at 5a.m.
I told my mom the next day that if I could go around to high schools and some how magically transfer that pain and anxiety that moms feel about their children to these young girls ( like in the Green Mile or something ) just for 1 minute, they would NEVER have sex until they were married. Guaranteed. My mom responded with an aire of; you think I don't know this?? lol.

Mimosa's, old friends, and 7 kids

My 3 yr old professional photographer took this one - It's been about 6 years since I think I've had a picture with Kim and Angie!

Kade fell and didn't realize he was being comforted by Angie for about 3 minutes (o:

Trevor enjoying an Einstein having a snack

Aubrey playing with the toys

Jack and Taylor on the slide

Kyla and Brady

We have been going crazy with the rain - so I asked if my friends Kim, Angie, and Jeana wanted to come over before I mopped my floors to give all of the kids a change of scenery with us all being couped up due to weather. ( a few of the people I don't freak out that see my house a complete mess! ) So this morning Robert brings to my attention that 9 kids were about to come over and he said I was crazy.... Poor Jeana has the flu so it was actually only 7 k ids. Angie's husband thought the same thing and I guess said: " do I have to go?"

Kim brought Mimosas which made what was actually pretty fun to witness that much better - the kids all had a great time and I got to have some adult friend time with friends that I hardly ever see, but love being around because I feel like we just saw each other the day before - how great is that?

Well I think I'm going to have to do this every weekend because Kade and Jack slept for almost 3 hours after they left! Kyla coughed herself awake - but that's ok, I got about 30 minutes of a nap in before that happened, yeay!

To move or not to move...

There is a house around the corner from my moms that just came up for rent... it's SO much bigger than our tiny little house, and has so much more to offer, but of course it's more money. Buying is out of the question for us for quite some time, so we are currently weighing the pro's and con's and I'm thinking that the space of the new place may outway the additional cost as well as the fact that I love the location of my current house... I guess we'll have to see if we even get it first - there were 5 people that came to look at it just by driving by while they were showing it to us. )o: What to do....

Why us?

So someone tried to break into our truck about 3 weeks ago. Just after Christmas we got the joy of paying out a deductible to fix all of the damaged they caused to the body and the starter, etc.. Well - they tried again last night! Same thing - damage to the body and the starter as well as the door and the entry. NICE.
I just started on this bonus plan at work, so guess where some of the first one goes to, yes ANOTHER deductible! The universe knew I was about to make some extra money, so it had to make something happen to take the spending of it out of my hands! The topper of the whole thing, Robert finally got a test date ( after being on hold for 13 months while they kept him out of work ) to continue trying to move up in Edison, and the test was.... I'll give you one guess; yep, this morning. He found out about the truck when we went to get in it to go take his test. Great day, great, great day!

Brotherly love

Kyla found a bug that freaked her out tonight - and she ran to tell me to get rid of it before it eats her and her princess dress.... I was busy changing Jack so Kade says," I'll save you Kyla" and goes and kills the bug, then comes back and gets her and says, "its ok now, he dead. I threw a ball at him" and proceeded to show her the dead bug and his previous actions that got him to that stage. Kyla gave him a quick hug and said "thanks Kade." It was sweet and such a relief to the constant bickering that has emerged lately. All I normally hear is Kyla screaming: "DON'T YELL AT ME KADE!" So I'll trade that for chivalry and bug killing anyday!

I'm leaving the house on a work night!!!

I'm going to meet Becky, Cheryl, and Nicole for coffee....
and it's Wednesday night! Whoo Hoo!!!

Come out come out wherever you are!

So we lost Jack again - BUT the doors were all closed and locked because it was dark and we hadn't gone out for a couple of hours.....
I heard a clanking noise and couldn't figure out where it was coming from - I checked the bathrooms ( we always shut the door because he loves all things bathroom ) but I guess we forgot to shut one. It took me 3 looks in there to find him BEHIND the shower curtain playing in the shower that Kyla and I had just gotten out of( so still quite wet ) . He LOVES his baths and I guess didn't care if there was water in the tub or not!

Where does the time go?

Kyla seems to have grown up overnight! She always amazes me with her intelligence, but this weekend she seemed to go through this physical change, there is something about her face, hair and appearance in general that shocked me when I saw these pictures. She also has grown 2 inches in like 3 months because all of the pants I tried on her at the beginning of fall fit, now only half of them do... they are all too short.

These 2 pictures are from this weekend - ignore the silly sweatshirts... they are weekend play clothes ( and trust me very hard for me to get her to put them on so she doesn't ruin her other favorite stuff )

Every day she reminds me of how far we have come in the 4 years that it's been since we found out we were pregnant!

Look what I just got!

I haven't been this excited about anthing exercise based since Kim and I used to do 7 minute abs at our old apartment at 5:30 a.m. every day! I think I might post before, progress and after pictures and pick a goal date to keep me motivated. Then when I don't do anything you all can call me out on it and ask how the progress is going?!? Whatcha think?

I'm soooooo TIRED.

Rain is not good for toddlers who have a lot of energy!

I really hate the rain as it is... I understand it's importance, but I could do without it. ESPECIALLY having 3 toddlers, who love to play outside. We got out on Saturday for a few minutes and walked around the block, but besides that, the source of exercise has been bed jumping and tag.... the kids really want OUT bad. Poor Jack probably feels like he's in one tiny little room. Everytime we take the trash out or something he hears the front door and bolts for it, then throws himself on the floor when he realizes he can't go anywhere. He brought me his shoes to put on him atleast 5 times!

We had a fun evening Sunday night - we were all 5 ( a rare occurance ) in K & K's room taking turns taking pictures and playing airplane and everything else we could think of for about 30 minutes. Here are some of our fun pictures to share of our 30 minutes of family bonding! LOL , I can't get the words to go on top of the pictures for some reason.... urrrghhh. ( Kyla took the first one - she's watching me type this and wants to know everything I'm writing )

I have sugar in my toes!!!

Kyla came out of her room last night saying: "MOM help me, I have sugar in my toes and I can't get it out!" I thought she had something in her footsie jamies, but then she said: "the other toes don't have any sugar, just these toes and I can't walk on it either, I have sugar in them mom, sugar!?" I finally figured out that her foot was asleep. I'm sorry but, this was just the cutest thing ever to me! After I explained that her foot was asleep she said: "Well how do you wake up a foot mom?" She then proceeded to hop on one foot over to her daddy whom she thinks can fix anything... and really, isn't that exactly what dad's do anyway?

And then there is bathtime!

This is what peace, quiet, sibling love and happiness looks like in my house!