Weekend Recap...

Weekends are just a blur by the time Monday morning rolls around aren't they??

Friday night I actually think I either ate something bad or was just fighting off something worse because I was really sick and couldn't snap out of a very lethargic, falling asleep, nauseous, muscles not working thing that made me worried about being with the kids. Robert had a horrible sinus headache and had to be up for work at 4:00 a.m. the next day, so my wonderful parents were so kind as to take all 3 kids at 8:45 at night and put them to bed at her house. I went to bed 10 minutes later and slept pretty good.

Saturday Robert went in to work and got sent home because I.T. forgot to set him up for the new program and no one was there to do it. We went and got some breakfast and picked up the kids by 8:30. We took the kids to run some errands and had a really nice morning. Lots of water play and a really nice LONG nap for all 5 of us consumed our Saturday.

Saturday night Kyla, mom, and I ( along with GiGi, Angie, Cierra, & Kendra )went to Serina's baby shower with her family - it was a beautiful shower, there must have been at least 50 people there and at least 100 gifts.... Me Kyla and GiGi didn't last past 8:45 because it got too cold and we all forgot sweaters ( how dumb, we even knew it was outside?! ) *** Oooh, I almost forgot - the city of Lakewood set off fireworks from City Hall at 9:00 and the kids all sat outside bundled up on our driveway to watch them, they were fascinated by the colors!! I can't wait until the 4th now (o:

The kids watching the fireworks from the driveway. I should have walked them to South St. but I was just too tired at the thought. ( bad mommy )


Everyone tells Cierra that she looks like me when I was her age.... oh to be 17 again!


Kyla won the big bottle of M&M's by guessing how many were in there ( Mommy may have helped a little )


Sunday I spent practically the whole day cleaning the house to get ready for Robert's mom and niece to visit for the week. Why is it that I can't keep my house that clean just on a daily basis? After naps I did take the kids to MeMe & Papa's jacuzzi for some much needed water play and relaxing.

Kade had a really bad weekend and it was a bit strange for me, he's always difficult but this was "different" I wish he could express his feelings better to explain to me what was so wrong. It made me very sad.

Re-reading this, I'm sorry it's kind of a boring post )o:

Well Visit recap....

Kyla cried the whole way to the doctors, but once she got there and got to "show off" she was perfectly fine. She did pretty good on the sight test and they said great on the hearing... she heard things that 90% of the other kids don't hear. ( I told her now she has no excuse to not listen )

Kade was grumpy the whole time because I had to wake him up from his nap to go -

Thankfully Kade only needed one shot and I got to hold him while he got it, and Kyla was SO brave again. She jumped up on the table and I held her hands and she watched. She asked how many times they had to use the "pokey thing" She did cry pretty hard and of course limped dramatically all the way to the car moaning the whole time for effect - but they did great.

I can't believe this: Kade has gained 5 lbs in the last year!? Where is it? He also grew 2.5 inches. He's 95% for height and 50% for weight. He is officially though 3 lbs lighter than Jack. (o: Maybe he'll be taller than we thought???

Kyla is 3.5 lb heavier and 2.5 inches taller. I thought she grew more than 2.5 inches, but what do I know? She's 95% for height and 40 % for weight. She only weighs 2 lbs more than Jack. (o:

So I have a 33 lb kid, a 36 lb kid and a 38 lb kid! My back hurts just typing it!!

Well visits...

Kyla and Kade have their 3 and 4 yr old well visits today. I know I should be able to suck it up and do it myself, but if I have a willing helper to go with me, why in the world would I turn that down? I mean seriously, the thought of my "passionate" children watching each other get a shot and then only having 1 set of arms to console 2 children is too much for my fragile, tense brain at the moment.

My dad is going to go with me, love you dad!!!!

Last year Kyla actually did great, but if I have no help of course it will be the end of the world... if I have an extra heart and set of arms there, who knows, maybe she'll be brave again. Last year it was so cute - she geared herself up for the shot. She stood next to the table while they got the stuff ready, then with this determined look on her face she jumped up there and laid stiff as a board and proclaimed: "OK, I'm ready." She got her little shot and didn't even cry. I'm betting this year will not be that easy.

She has been pmsing ( as I've decided to call it ) for the last 3 days now. Any idea where she gets that from???????????



Yesterday she informed me that she 1. broker her arm and couldn't help clean up, 2. that she needed me so much because she couldn't stop crying, 3. that she was just too upset to eat anything other than her pasta and her salad. Fun stuff.

August 31st.

That is the date that I will be cheating on my husband with this man.


I just heard the advertisement for a concert at Verizon on August 31st. It was supposed to be Staind ( my favorite ) 3 Doors Down ( love them - lots of memories ) and Hinder ( mood music for me ) Well one of the guys in Staind has to go to a wedding so Aaron is going to be singing Acoustic instead.

I remember thinking that I was going to marry Gavin Rossdale and I had pictures and magazines and other cheesy things like that of him... I saw him in concert and it was great - but it proved I was not as obsessed as I thought. When I saw Aaron perform however, I cried. Yes, I cried - like a child. This proves my true love. He has the most powerful voice to me. He changes my emotions by his voice, I'll stop before I get too cheesy, but it's the truth.

He isn't very attractive, and nothing like Gavin - but I would honestly leave my husband to hear that voice sing to me every single day. I told Robert today that we need to enjoy our time together because it will be over on August 31st( unless he takes me back ) For some reason, he didn't seem to disappointed ( or perhaps didn't want to fuel my childish conversation?? )

Popsicles and hugs

Well I've all but given up on the sleeping issue.. I now lay with Jack until he falls asleep. Kyla goes to bed like a big girl and Kade either is in his bed or on the couch - whatever. I need some sleep and at this point I don't care how I get it right now. The good thing is that it's happening closer to 9 than to 10 and never 11 anymore ( at least not for the kids ) I think I slept in Jacks bed all night last night, but I'm so tired I'm not even sure I remember??? I'm being serious.

Now on to better things - Jack LOVES his sister Kyla. It's like she's a mini-me if I'm unavailable or something. He kisses her when she wakes up, he lays with her when she's on the couch, he walks up to her and asks for a hug when he's hurt or sad.
He's really starting to talk more and more and more too! He's definitely passed the 25 word goal for a 2 yr old and says about 3 new words each day... he "sings" about 5 different songs by using his own "words" and by humming, but they are totally in-tune and I know exactly what songs they are. I'm getting so very proud of him.

The kids all love popsicles - K & K both loved them when they were 11 months old, but Jack just a month ago has finally started to enjoy them. If I sit back and relax a little I realize it's actually quite cute at my house to have all 3 of my little ones doing the same thing together.

Nothing to do with the post, but it was just a very sweet moment in the middle of a very difficult week with Kade. ( Those are my knees by the way )


I love summer weather - it's so nice to not be inside for the majority of our evenings!

Kyla's 1st pen pal / letter

Sorry Julie, I'll send you up the real thing, but I had to show it off here too!

My friend Julie has decided to ask Kyla to be her pen pal because I told her Kyla loves stickers, dancing and music! She sent Kyla a letter and she was SO excited to get mail I didn't think she would ever stop smiling. Kyla walks around daily with a purse or basket or bag full of various writing utensils, glue sticks, stickers and envelopes and begs me to "write cards" constantly. She's even already mailed her Santa list out.

My mom helped her write her very first big girl letter all by herself the day after ( and I'm the bad mommy who hasn't put a stamp on it to get it in the mail )

She's getting so big. )o:

Dance Party!

I joined Jeana and Kelly at Kim's house last night for their sometimes weekday routine of wearing the kids out and getting some adult time ( & mimosas, yeay! ) The kids played in the pools and had some snacks for outside time, then we went inside to the A/C and continued the play and Kim so kindly fed all of the kids dinner. After dinner we got to experience the "Dance Party" ( see Kim and Jeana's previous posts ) It was so inspiring, I actually took the time to get the video to work on my camera... cross your fingers it upload's here! Then Jeana chaced them around the most perfect "circle" ever. Kim has a hallway that is a small wall with a dining room table on the other side & this forms a perfect circle for children to chace each other around while screaming... They then played hide and seek in Kim's various rooms and pantry, and again screamed when found! I told Kim I was coming over every night if this meant my kids go to bed easily - because they had SUCH a great time with their friends. It's was so cute to see them really interact with the other kids. We've been hanging out as often as possible, but this time was different. They called each other by names, played together instead of my kids kind of observing the others, and were sad to have to leave. It's so cute - Trevor calls Kyla: "Ky-ya" I think everyone has gone through that stage and she even calls herself that when she's trying to get Jack to say her name because she knows it's easier. Being with them makes me feel SO normal in a life that I frequently feel like I'm struggling through. Thank you guys for that!

My kids have finally been to the beach!

I know, I'm a horrible mom - but the thought of what it takes to prepare 3 kids for the beach was just overwhelming to me until now. TJ and I decided to just do it knowing how much fun the kids would have... and OMG they did! We got to Mother's Beach at 9:30 on Sunday morning and I have to say - that is the best time to go. Any later and it's just too crowded. We left about 11:30 due to heat and over-crowding -but that was perfect for our first trip! We spent so much time playing in various water sources since Friday night, that I don't think my kids had a proper bath since Thursday night!!! Uncle Randy and Auntie Becky came over Friday night for dinner, and Uncle Randy was so kind as to PUSH the kids down the slip and slide because they couldn't figure out how to jump on their belly and slide... I had already done it for an hour, so he is my hero! ( the slip and slide is perfect for crawlers by the way - Camryn was so cute, she just crawled back and forth over the little puddles that it created! Was it hot or what this weekend??


Don't you just want to eat her up??? She's so kissable!


Thank you Uncle Randy - you are the BEST!


Slip and slide fun... and a DIEGO slip and slide none the less!


Notice the cropping.. any motivation I had lost for crunches has been returned by the un-cropped version of this picture!!


My transparent Baby staying all covered up.. he was enamored with the openness


Look at me mom!!


Aiden running up for snacks


Kyla digging

Good things...

Although I'm still grumpy and tired, I figure it's time for a good post...
( and I wont even talk about the sleeping situation today! )

Good things right now:

I only have 3, maybe 4 loads of laundry to do over the weekend, I've done the other 4 through out the week!
I'm leaving my house tonight to go hang out with other women and no children. (o:
My parents pool is finally getting warm enough to go in - which we did yesterday!
We were supposed to go meet Jeana at the concert in the park, but I got engulfed in watching my kids playing in the water and took my mom up on her offer to feed us dinner while we were there!


Kyla is a fish, Kade loves the water ( not quite the pool right away - but after 3-4 visits, he's warmed up to it ) and Jack is a dare devil in it. I seriously think he'll swim before the others. His first year of really being in the water other than being held by someone is now, and he LOVES it. He doesn't want to be touched and jumps off the steps by himself and doggy paddles like a pro! He spits out the water if he swallows it and can navigate anywhere around the pool... all in his first time "swimming"

And it continues...

Sorry these are so long and so much to read, I don't know how to shorten them.
I'm trying to drive the point home for my kids when they read these 5 years from now I guess!!

I'm trying mentally to make light of the sleeping situation, but I'm honestly really frustrated and just plain tired. I don't know why I'm surprised because nothing goes smoothing when raising 3 kids 12 months apart from each other - but I guess I thought I deserved a break.

Last night:
Kade asked me if he could spend the night at meme's house... well he didn't even have to ask twice before I called my mom and guilted her into taking him. Jack and I walked him over and I instantly felt more relaxed. ( He was being VERY bad and defiant and had already had 3 time outs in 1 hour )
Jack and Kyla played nicely - they colored and Kyla made her nightly cards for everyone. She writes: I love you ---- xoxo Kyla and puts stickers on them and puts them in envelopes... she has a little purse, bag, basket ( it changes daily ) that she carries her "supplies" around in!
Anyway..... I tried putting Jack down at 8:30 figuring he's GOT to be tired from sleeping only from 11:00 p.m. - 6:00 a.m. for the last 2 days - but NOPE, he's wide awake and not even entertaining the possibility of laying still.
I try again at 9:30 and decide that I'm tired enough to lay with him. Guess what... he falls asleep by 10:00 - I successfully leave the room. At this point I'm just thankful that it's an hour earlier than last night and crawl into my bed and fall asleep instantly.
10:35 - I hear knocking at a door. He knocks first to see if someone will open his door for him, obviously I don't. Then he messes with the door knob for a few minutes and gets the door open. WTH? I get out of bed and glance out of my room to see him contimplating whether or not he should leave his room, as he's opening and shutting his door by about 5 inches. He decides on shutting the door and I assume goes back into his bed. GOOD BOY. Finally sleep. ( I WISH )
10:45 he gets up AGAIN to actually decide he WILL go ahead and open the door all the way. He finds a transformer car on the floor and begins to play with it. I still stay nothing, hoping he'll go back in his room again. During this silence on my part, Robert decides that it's clearly the appropriate time to snore VERY loudly as an obvious reminder to Jack that mommy and daddy are here. I reluctantly and angrily get up and see my little man standing there with his head down and his arms up knowing he did something wrong.
The sleep finally comences with me and my son in his twin bed at 10:50 at night listening to lullabyes. I don't know who fell asleep first.
( Of course it was pointless at 11:30 when I woke up again from the discomfort to go back into my bed due to the outrageous noise coming out of my husband so I sleep on the couch. )
I'm just a ball of joy today.

WHY? Seriously - WHY?

There isn't a title good enough to describe how I'm feeling right now.

I have gone to bed at 11:00 p.m. for the last 2 nights, not because I was engaged in some wonderful, light-hearted romantic comedy, not because I was reading a great book I couldn't put down, and not even because I was catching up on my US Magazines and having a glass of wine - it was because of my precious ( I have to tell myself that so I don't throw him in the trash ) " I AM 2 NOW " Jack.

Jack has turned 2 with a vengance. Everything up until that point has esentially been quite easy. He's always been happy, no discipline needed, a little behind on things which made much of my life easier, just generally easy going. Well - that almost all has ended. He's getting more and more real words out, but that doesn't stop him from thinking he can recite a novel. He doesn't quite sing correctly, but that doesn't stop him from humming his favorite tune. He doesn't say excuse me, when he wants your attention but that doesn't stop him from hitting you as hard as he can IN THE FACE. He throws tantrums and everything else he can lift - while giggling.

Last night and the night before he was tired, he wanted to sleep - but he wouldn't FALL ASLEEP. He kept getting up even though he was getting trouble. He kept laughing even though he knew he was being bad. After awhile he wanted to sleep, Robert and I took turns putting him back in his bed without talking to him, then we would hold him, then we would rub him, then we would lay with him. Each time he would literally fall asleep after barely being able to hold his eyes open - then we would move just a little and he would FREAK out. We let him cry, he learned how to open the door ( I AM NOT HAPPY ABOUT THIS ) he layed on the couch with us then again fell asleep, I tried to transfer him after 15 minutes of sleeping - he woke up. I told myself through out this whole process DO NOT PUT HIM IN YOUR BED. Well, guess what I did. I slept with my Jack in my bed last night. He has officially fallen into the bad routine that the previous kids did as well. DAMNIT!

OK, the thing I have to add to this story is that while I'm rubbing his head he pulls my head onto his belly and rubs my face and my hair. Robert didn't believe me but then saw it for himself.... you can't help but smile. AND he literally had a "HAHAHA, suckers!" look on his face when he got picked up after not being in his bed.

I'm actually wondering if there is something medically wrong with my boys. They were both in their beds tired at 9:00. Kade was up as well past 10:30 just talking to himself and singing. Kyla used to do that too. They don't even watch TV anymore - the run, jump, play, wrestle, and are very active in the evening so it's not for lack of burning energy. I'm at a loss.

HOW AM I EVER GOING TO WIN. Do I have to just wait this one out for another year?? Does age 2 = push your parents sleep paterns to the limit? I'm gonna lose my mind - what's left of it that is.

Happy Father's Day !

Better late than never ( seems to be my motto these days! )

We had a very nice Father's Day... the first part of the day was normal, Robert went to get the kids donuts and we all just played all morning. I then tried to get the kids down for a nap and it was not happening. It would have been Jack's 1st nap in his big bed, IMPOSSIBLE, but I'll digress if I get started on that subject! Robert left while I was trying to do the naps to buy himself some t-shirts, and he only made it to Toys R Us because Kyla asked him to buy her something. He's been complaining for months that he has no new t-shirts and his free chance, he goes to Toys R Us. This is very typical of him though and I guess the ultimate statment of a father. He brought the kids home a blow up waterslide/pool thing to take to Uncle TJ's later for a BBQ. It was a huge success and the kids had a great time! The food was fantastic and it was nice to be somewhere other than our house (o:

To the love of my life - You have given me the most beautiful, wonderful, loving, precious, fascinating children I could have ever asked for. You've given me something I never thought I would have, and I will love you forever for that. Your children look up to you and want to be with you always. Your children need you and love your love. The softness that you can show them and your creative ways of getting them to understand and soothe them warms my heart and gives me peace. Your larger than life presence is very powerful, I hope that you provide guidance and success that you are always proud of! My love forever, xoxo

Kyla and Kade on Father's day

Robert and Jack on Father's day -


To my wonderful Dad - I get you. I understand you, and I love you. You have taught me more than I could fit on this page and I'm eternally grateful for that. You've given me a lot of your difficult personality traits, but at the same time that has helped me in so many ways. I love seeing you with my kids and the love that they have for you is unmeasurable. My wish for you in the upcoming year is to relax and play more~ you are the hardest working person I've ever met - All of my love xoxo
Papa and 3 of his 4 grandkids

My 2 Jack's


To my brother TJ - Aiden has made you the wonderful man you are today. You have raised an amazing little boy who I absolutely adore and couldn't imagine one day of my life without him being a part of. My kids LOVE their Uncle TJ and look up to their cousin Aiden so very much. You and Aiden have a huge affect on all of those around you - I am always bragging about what an amazing dad you are to your son. I can't wait to see you raise Gavin with all of the love and dedication you have given to Aiden. I love you!

Ignore Robert's face, he refused to look normal ( as usual! )

ONE MILLION PICTURES... and a busy weekend

We had a great busy weekend - I'm going to do a separate post with daddy and more father's day pictures... but Friday night we prepared for Serina's baby shower at my house at 12:30 Saturday, 3:30 Saturday was Ruby's 3rd b-day party ( I think me K & K got there about 4:45 ) and Sunday was Father's day - hectic by fun!
Some of these pictures are just random and some are to catch up from old posts.. I need to get our new computer, I'm just too lazy by the time it comes around to taking the time to go get one!!

Kade and a party bag - it's an older picture, but my kids have a fascination with
party bags... this was him gripping one while he was sleeping.


Aubrey and a minnie mouse almost as big as her - SO CUTE


Seriously, what would life be like without bouncers and slides..


Happy Birthday Ruby! Thanks for letting us come over to play!!


All she wanted was a picture of us with Dora and I got this wonderful love filled picture (o:


Not a great picture - but HOLY CRAP look at those eyes... I couldn't resist putting it in here.


Aiden and Jack ( with help from daddy ) going over the water slide


The grandkids playing in the "waterslide pool" on Father's day at Uncle TJ's house.


Mom and Serina at her shower this weekend


All 4 grandkids!


Papa going down one of the bouncer slides...


Dressed up for Sex and The City!

It's bound to happen with one of them...

Aiden didn't do it, Kyla didn't do it, even my devil child Kade didn't do it.... but baby Jack has made up for all 3 of the others.

Crayons ( or any other writing instrument for that matter ) can NOT be left within sight. Jack has colored on several of my kitchen tile floors, my dishwasher, oven, cabinets a few walls and drawers as well as my fridge. He's done the same at my moms house ( she doesn't think it's as cute as I do by the way )

I have realized though, that my baby Jack has had little experience with discipline -he's never needed it - he just listens. You tell him no or stop or wait, etc.. and he's always done it. NOT ANYMORE. We had 5 great nights of him staying in his bed, well that dream has died. I put him back in his bed 30 times last night and gave him a little smack on his diaper and he whined for a sec, then he just jumps up and starts giggling - urrgghh. I finally just left him in there to play and he finally stopped playing and claimed up in his bed by himself and went to sleep. Robert has declared this his best "big kid action" to date. Mind you - the kids had NO nap yesterday... I'll write more about that and fathers day after I get my pictures on my work computer.

Cars, Cars, and more cars... ( and Monster Trucks! )

Thank you Auntie Cheryl for bringing over all of these great cars that your boys outgrew! Kade has not stopped carrying around the monster trucks in the special case.... he wont even share them! He keeps walking around saying: "this one is from Auntie Cheryl, Auntie Cheryl gave them to ME." aaahhh the simple things in life.

I'm at my moms house right now because I'm about to kill my husband who isn't cooperating when it comes to keeping the kids calm at bedtime. I went 2 nights of full success getting the kids to sleep in their beds w/out me having to lay with them, spank or yell, and just having a little patience - well he's taking every last bit of it away from me today.

Crib-less, without crib, absense of crib....

These are all terms that you can use to describe 6008 Pearce Ave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jack was a little sad though, he kept rubbing his crib while we were taking it apart and saying: "ni-night"

THIS IS HUGE!!!

Jack stayed in his bed again last night, although he was the last to go to sleep because he just thought it was the coolest thing to be in there with Kyla and Kade ( oh Kyla had to sleep on the crib mattress on the floor in-between her brothers to be part of the excitement )and he just kept talking and laughing and giggling at himself. Kade was my problem child and didn't want to go to bed on his bed, but he did, and I didn't give in.

Sleep times: Kyla; 9:30 Kade; 9:45 Jack; 10:00 - BUT they were all in a bed in a different room than mine.

Jack didn't get out of bed again either this morning, he talked until I went in to get him. yeay for me! ( finally )

~ I have a lot to say today ~

First and foremost - my cousin Marybeth ( My dad's brother Dennis' daughter )was diagnosed with cervical cancer just last week. I want to put my arms around her and make it go away. We don't see each other but maybe 3 times a year if that, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to fix it. I'm so upset and can't even fathom how her husband, kids, mother, father, brothers, sister, and nieces must feel. I can't. If there is anything I could do to take away how that must feel I would. It's really getting to me and I can't seem to understand how this type of thing happens. I've never gone through something like this besides elderly sickness and I'm realizing that although I do not wish anything bad on anyone at all, the fact I haven't experienced it is definitely making reality of it hit my brain / heart hard.
Please send positive thoughts to her and her family.

Second, Kade threw up on his birthday. Poor little man. He had been "off" for the couple of days prior to and we celebrated the night before - which probably proved to be a bit much for him... ( or he and Jack had a little bug because he threw up the day before ) The good news is, that I ended up having to stay home from work and spent the entire day cuddling with my son.
( don't forget to look at my sweet man's b-day post.. which I couldn't do until 2 days late.. bad mommy!! )

Third, there has been no pee or sleeping in our own bed for Kade's 3rd birthday. I'm just way to tired to care anymore. It will happen when it happens. I'm lucky to brush my teeth right now.

Fourth, and I'm afraid I'm going to jinx myself - but... Jack slept in Kade's bed last night!! He cried when I put him in his crib ( which he never does ) so I layed with him on Kade's bed for a second and decided to see what would happen if I left the room with him there. Well - he cried out/whimpered for about 30 minutes and I went in there a few times telling him to put his head down and close his eyes.. and he did! He never got up and he slept "like a baby" Even this morning he woke up, and didn't get out of bed until I went into the room. I had NO plans of even attempting this until I had some energy and figured I would break Kade's bedtime habit and get Jack in a bed at the same time... I think I'm going to take the crib down to not allow myself to revert backwards. YEAY!

Happy 3rd Birthday Kade!

My baby Kade at 2 wks old ( notice the black hair )


I cried and cried when we cut off his hair for the first time ( age 1 )


Kade enjoying the water age 2


My handsome handsome 3 yr old!!!



I just found a journal the other day that I wrote in when I found out I was pregnant with Kade. Needless to say we were not ready for another baby; not physically, mentally or financially. Through out my pregnancy much of my time was spent wondering how in the world is it possible to love another baby when I already have a perfect one at home that I'm still getting used to. I have to give all of my love to that one right? I finally admitted that I was feeling that way and got reassured that everyone goes through that a little bit and that I'll understand how it's possible as soon as it happens.
There are no words to describe the intense love that I felt when Kade was born. The birth was hell, they had to use the plunger thing to get him out, and I was miserable.. but the moment I saw him I could have done it all over again willingly. I cried like I've never cried before ( and I've cried a lot! ) Even now writing this, I can feel that love again and I'm eternally grateful for that.
I think Kade knew he was going to be a middle child before we even knew it. Our world has been "what about me?" when it comes to Kade ever since he's been here. He was colicy.. one day he cried for 9 hours straight, no naps! He has tummy issues, he wouldn't take a paci or his thumb, he throws HUGE fits, and has gone through hitting and biting stages, he is a lover and a fighter - and I think his brain doesn't know which one he is until it's happening.
Sometimes I feel like I'm raising his father from birth ( I'm 100% serious ) with the same addiction I have for Robert. I'm absolutely in love with Kade. I think he's gorgeous and soft and sweet, and confusing, and loving, and going to cause me stress for my entire life. I will always wish for him internal happiness and a feeling of love and comfort no matter where his life takes him.
In keeping with Kyla's b-day post.... 10 things about Kade:
1) He hates bread. Wont eat toast, sandwiches, bagels, cheeseburgers - but he will eat Pizza, French toast, pankcakes, quesidilla's, taquitos, and enchiritos... go figure??
2) He is the best helper ( when he wants to be ) he doesn't like things out of place and knows exactly where they go and if he's too lazy to put it there, he will still ask you to make sure you put it there.
3) He's very intense. VERY intense. If something upsets him at any given moment, it is like he's broken his arm or fell down 10 flights of stairs. Maybe he'll be an actor??
4) He has a teddy bear blanket that he sleeps with - he bundles it up under his belly and he sleeps with his butt in the air.
5) Kade's skin is softer than anything I have ever felt
6) He knows how much I love kisses and he's very very stingy with them.... saves them for when he wants something.
7) Can not accept anything without "one for Kyla" whether it be a prize at the store, a piece of gum, anything.
8) Loves tools and golfing and water. If he had golf clubs, water, and tools to play with, he would be happy all day with an occasional "will you play with me?"
9) I think he's starting to realize that Jack is almost as tall as him and it's bugging him a little bit.
10) He's very easy to punish and VERY easy to forgive!

I'm grumpy and tired

I had the goal a month ago, of getting Kade potty trained and sleeping in his own bed by the time his 3rd birthday came ( June 6.. yes 2 days from now ) wwweellll - I have definitely not given it my all. I haven't probably even given it 20% effort to be honest. I'm exceptionally tired and just all around worn out and have been for several weeks now it seems. We do have some progress, strange progress, but still progress none the less.

Over the weekend Kade did pee in his Diego potty, or should I say part of his Diego potty. We sat on the potty while watching TV, then we moved the potty to the bathroom, then we put grass in the potty to "pretend" we were outside, then we put water in the potty to make bubbles, then we dumped the water and the grass out, then we put the potty on top of the big potty, then we went into the back yard (naked I might add.. him not me, lol!! ) to see if he could pee on the grass then I would sneak the bowl part of the potty under him to catch the pee. He was watering the grass because he's addicted to all things water, and I had the bowl under him wating for the pee to come out. He has had 2 cups of juice and we had been doing this now for atleast an hour. So he tries and tries by concentrating really hard, but nothing. He has been so patient, but he's ready to give up. He walks back towards the house and says, "I'm just done trying mommy." I say, ok come here, and on the way back to me still on the grass he says: "I'm just gonna pee on the grass" and starts to pee - I run over with the bowl and make a huge deal about it going in the bowl and how it doesn't hurt, etc.. etc.. That's our peeing success story so far.

Our sleeping success story is that he will fall asleep by himself on either couch and stay there all night long. He doesn't wake up, he doesn't want to come in our bed, he just wants the couch. At this point, I'll take it. It's not my bed so I don't care. Weird though huh? We've had atleast a whole week of no kids in our bed!!

Oh he tells me that he will 1) eat ketchup, but not ranch 2) go pee on the toilet and 3) sleep in his own bed when he's 3 and "bigger." We'll see.

P.S. I secretly CAN NOT wait to talk about him on my blog on his birthday!!! I love this thing.

I hate Monday's

Kyla asked me this morning if I could please stay home with her today. They do that frequently, but normally it comes out robotic-like and planned or something. Today she REALLY meant it and gave me the most longing, begging, puppy dog eyes ever. It broke my heart a little bit.
Saturday night Robert took Kade with him to TJ's house for awhile ( too long and too late... but that's a whole other topic ) and Jack fell asleep, so Kyla and I had some girly time. She's so lovey and likes to give me kisses on my cheeks now. We layed on our tummy's and read books and talked about all of the girly stuff we are going to do this summer. I loved it.

Then yesterday, I had one of those days ( well 2 hours ) that I just didn't want to end. I took Kade with me to Target and Albertsons. I wish I could have video taped the whole thing, it would have brought instant smiles to everyone... I know this because he made everyone that was within a few feet of us smile. He was just talking up a storm and asking me question and after question in his sweet voice that goes up an octave on the last word. He was smiling, and helpful, and kept asking what he could do to help and putting stuff in the cart for me. I swear I loved him so much I would have bought him the whole store if he asked me too... ( well atleast rent money's worth! )

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SEX AND THE CITY WAS AMAZING BY THE WAY - I WANTED TO STAY AND WATCH IT AGAIN AS SOON AS IT WAS OVER!!!!! I'LL POST PICTURES SOON ( We still haven't bought a computer )
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