It's bound to happen with one of them...

Aiden didn't do it, Kyla didn't do it, even my devil child Kade didn't do it.... but baby Jack has made up for all 3 of the others.

Crayons ( or any other writing instrument for that matter ) can NOT be left within sight. Jack has colored on several of my kitchen tile floors, my dishwasher, oven, cabinets a few walls and drawers as well as my fridge. He's done the same at my moms house ( she doesn't think it's as cute as I do by the way )

I have realized though, that my baby Jack has had little experience with discipline -he's never needed it - he just listens. You tell him no or stop or wait, etc.. and he's always done it. NOT ANYMORE. We had 5 great nights of him staying in his bed, well that dream has died. I put him back in his bed 30 times last night and gave him a little smack on his diaper and he whined for a sec, then he just jumps up and starts giggling - urrgghh. I finally just left him in there to play and he finally stopped playing and claimed up in his bed by himself and went to sleep. Robert has declared this his best "big kid action" to date. Mind you - the kids had NO nap yesterday... I'll write more about that and fathers day after I get my pictures on my work computer.

Cars, Cars, and more cars... ( and Monster Trucks! )

Thank you Auntie Cheryl for bringing over all of these great cars that your boys outgrew! Kade has not stopped carrying around the monster trucks in the special case.... he wont even share them! He keeps walking around saying: "this one is from Auntie Cheryl, Auntie Cheryl gave them to ME." aaahhh the simple things in life.

I'm at my moms house right now because I'm about to kill my husband who isn't cooperating when it comes to keeping the kids calm at bedtime. I went 2 nights of full success getting the kids to sleep in their beds w/out me having to lay with them, spank or yell, and just having a little patience - well he's taking every last bit of it away from me today.

Crib-less, without crib, absense of crib....

These are all terms that you can use to describe 6008 Pearce Ave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jack was a little sad though, he kept rubbing his crib while we were taking it apart and saying: "ni-night"

THIS IS HUGE!!!

Jack stayed in his bed again last night, although he was the last to go to sleep because he just thought it was the coolest thing to be in there with Kyla and Kade ( oh Kyla had to sleep on the crib mattress on the floor in-between her brothers to be part of the excitement )and he just kept talking and laughing and giggling at himself. Kade was my problem child and didn't want to go to bed on his bed, but he did, and I didn't give in.

Sleep times: Kyla; 9:30 Kade; 9:45 Jack; 10:00 - BUT they were all in a bed in a different room than mine.

Jack didn't get out of bed again either this morning, he talked until I went in to get him. yeay for me! ( finally )

~ I have a lot to say today ~

First and foremost - my cousin Marybeth ( My dad's brother Dennis' daughter )was diagnosed with cervical cancer just last week. I want to put my arms around her and make it go away. We don't see each other but maybe 3 times a year if that, but that doesn't change the fact that I want to fix it. I'm so upset and can't even fathom how her husband, kids, mother, father, brothers, sister, and nieces must feel. I can't. If there is anything I could do to take away how that must feel I would. It's really getting to me and I can't seem to understand how this type of thing happens. I've never gone through something like this besides elderly sickness and I'm realizing that although I do not wish anything bad on anyone at all, the fact I haven't experienced it is definitely making reality of it hit my brain / heart hard.
Please send positive thoughts to her and her family.

Second, Kade threw up on his birthday. Poor little man. He had been "off" for the couple of days prior to and we celebrated the night before - which probably proved to be a bit much for him... ( or he and Jack had a little bug because he threw up the day before ) The good news is, that I ended up having to stay home from work and spent the entire day cuddling with my son.
( don't forget to look at my sweet man's b-day post.. which I couldn't do until 2 days late.. bad mommy!! )

Third, there has been no pee or sleeping in our own bed for Kade's 3rd birthday. I'm just way to tired to care anymore. It will happen when it happens. I'm lucky to brush my teeth right now.

Fourth, and I'm afraid I'm going to jinx myself - but... Jack slept in Kade's bed last night!! He cried when I put him in his crib ( which he never does ) so I layed with him on Kade's bed for a second and decided to see what would happen if I left the room with him there. Well - he cried out/whimpered for about 30 minutes and I went in there a few times telling him to put his head down and close his eyes.. and he did! He never got up and he slept "like a baby" Even this morning he woke up, and didn't get out of bed until I went into the room. I had NO plans of even attempting this until I had some energy and figured I would break Kade's bedtime habit and get Jack in a bed at the same time... I think I'm going to take the crib down to not allow myself to revert backwards. YEAY!

Happy 3rd Birthday Kade!

My baby Kade at 2 wks old ( notice the black hair )


I cried and cried when we cut off his hair for the first time ( age 1 )


Kade enjoying the water age 2


My handsome handsome 3 yr old!!!



I just found a journal the other day that I wrote in when I found out I was pregnant with Kade. Needless to say we were not ready for another baby; not physically, mentally or financially. Through out my pregnancy much of my time was spent wondering how in the world is it possible to love another baby when I already have a perfect one at home that I'm still getting used to. I have to give all of my love to that one right? I finally admitted that I was feeling that way and got reassured that everyone goes through that a little bit and that I'll understand how it's possible as soon as it happens.
There are no words to describe the intense love that I felt when Kade was born. The birth was hell, they had to use the plunger thing to get him out, and I was miserable.. but the moment I saw him I could have done it all over again willingly. I cried like I've never cried before ( and I've cried a lot! ) Even now writing this, I can feel that love again and I'm eternally grateful for that.
I think Kade knew he was going to be a middle child before we even knew it. Our world has been "what about me?" when it comes to Kade ever since he's been here. He was colicy.. one day he cried for 9 hours straight, no naps! He has tummy issues, he wouldn't take a paci or his thumb, he throws HUGE fits, and has gone through hitting and biting stages, he is a lover and a fighter - and I think his brain doesn't know which one he is until it's happening.
Sometimes I feel like I'm raising his father from birth ( I'm 100% serious ) with the same addiction I have for Robert. I'm absolutely in love with Kade. I think he's gorgeous and soft and sweet, and confusing, and loving, and going to cause me stress for my entire life. I will always wish for him internal happiness and a feeling of love and comfort no matter where his life takes him.
In keeping with Kyla's b-day post.... 10 things about Kade:
1) He hates bread. Wont eat toast, sandwiches, bagels, cheeseburgers - but he will eat Pizza, French toast, pankcakes, quesidilla's, taquitos, and enchiritos... go figure??
2) He is the best helper ( when he wants to be ) he doesn't like things out of place and knows exactly where they go and if he's too lazy to put it there, he will still ask you to make sure you put it there.
3) He's very intense. VERY intense. If something upsets him at any given moment, it is like he's broken his arm or fell down 10 flights of stairs. Maybe he'll be an actor??
4) He has a teddy bear blanket that he sleeps with - he bundles it up under his belly and he sleeps with his butt in the air.
5) Kade's skin is softer than anything I have ever felt
6) He knows how much I love kisses and he's very very stingy with them.... saves them for when he wants something.
7) Can not accept anything without "one for Kyla" whether it be a prize at the store, a piece of gum, anything.
8) Loves tools and golfing and water. If he had golf clubs, water, and tools to play with, he would be happy all day with an occasional "will you play with me?"
9) I think he's starting to realize that Jack is almost as tall as him and it's bugging him a little bit.
10) He's very easy to punish and VERY easy to forgive!

I'm grumpy and tired

I had the goal a month ago, of getting Kade potty trained and sleeping in his own bed by the time his 3rd birthday came ( June 6.. yes 2 days from now ) wwweellll - I have definitely not given it my all. I haven't probably even given it 20% effort to be honest. I'm exceptionally tired and just all around worn out and have been for several weeks now it seems. We do have some progress, strange progress, but still progress none the less.

Over the weekend Kade did pee in his Diego potty, or should I say part of his Diego potty. We sat on the potty while watching TV, then we moved the potty to the bathroom, then we put grass in the potty to "pretend" we were outside, then we put water in the potty to make bubbles, then we dumped the water and the grass out, then we put the potty on top of the big potty, then we went into the back yard (naked I might add.. him not me, lol!! ) to see if he could pee on the grass then I would sneak the bowl part of the potty under him to catch the pee. He was watering the grass because he's addicted to all things water, and I had the bowl under him wating for the pee to come out. He has had 2 cups of juice and we had been doing this now for atleast an hour. So he tries and tries by concentrating really hard, but nothing. He has been so patient, but he's ready to give up. He walks back towards the house and says, "I'm just done trying mommy." I say, ok come here, and on the way back to me still on the grass he says: "I'm just gonna pee on the grass" and starts to pee - I run over with the bowl and make a huge deal about it going in the bowl and how it doesn't hurt, etc.. etc.. That's our peeing success story so far.

Our sleeping success story is that he will fall asleep by himself on either couch and stay there all night long. He doesn't wake up, he doesn't want to come in our bed, he just wants the couch. At this point, I'll take it. It's not my bed so I don't care. Weird though huh? We've had atleast a whole week of no kids in our bed!!

Oh he tells me that he will 1) eat ketchup, but not ranch 2) go pee on the toilet and 3) sleep in his own bed when he's 3 and "bigger." We'll see.

P.S. I secretly CAN NOT wait to talk about him on my blog on his birthday!!! I love this thing.

I hate Monday's

Kyla asked me this morning if I could please stay home with her today. They do that frequently, but normally it comes out robotic-like and planned or something. Today she REALLY meant it and gave me the most longing, begging, puppy dog eyes ever. It broke my heart a little bit.
Saturday night Robert took Kade with him to TJ's house for awhile ( too long and too late... but that's a whole other topic ) and Jack fell asleep, so Kyla and I had some girly time. She's so lovey and likes to give me kisses on my cheeks now. We layed on our tummy's and read books and talked about all of the girly stuff we are going to do this summer. I loved it.

Then yesterday, I had one of those days ( well 2 hours ) that I just didn't want to end. I took Kade with me to Target and Albertsons. I wish I could have video taped the whole thing, it would have brought instant smiles to everyone... I know this because he made everyone that was within a few feet of us smile. He was just talking up a storm and asking me question and after question in his sweet voice that goes up an octave on the last word. He was smiling, and helpful, and kept asking what he could do to help and putting stuff in the cart for me. I swear I loved him so much I would have bought him the whole store if he asked me too... ( well atleast rent money's worth! )

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SEX AND THE CITY WAS AMAZING BY THE WAY - I WANTED TO STAY AND WATCH IT AGAIN AS SOON AS IT WAS OVER!!!!! I'LL POST PICTURES SOON ( We still haven't bought a computer )
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